I was thinking about taking one of the more challenging courses (for myself) like History during the summer, anyway. I appreciate the suggestion, and I'll be looking for a job over Spring. I'm not sure if it would be wise to work during the semester, however...

I doubt that the University I go to offers courses during the winter. I know they allow people to stay in the dorms over break, but nearly everybody goes home. I'd have absolutely no social life, and without a job, no money to support myself during that time.

I think my family really appreciates it when I come up, everything is fine for a while, but then there are moments like last night that just remind me of the way it used to be... the reasons why I don't like being at home. That is why I would feel guilty about avoiding this place, they would miss me and all. I think that having a job and studies during the summer would give me an excuse to not be around, but I would still feel guilty about that.