hi.

so yeah, my back is killing me. i mean, i'm literally on the verge of suicide. i've cried myself to sleep the last 3 nights. i've gone to sleep at 8 at night, not because i'm tired, but because my back will not work anymore.

i think it's making me into an alcoholic as well. i've been drinking quite a bit because i'm in so much pain.

stretching isn't helping. my friend did cupping, didn't help. drugs don't help. alcohol doesn't help either, but it's all i have right now.

i need help.

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