vashhhh, snowboarding irritates my back a lot.

BUT the back pain is making me depressed. the slowing down, along with the pain is really messing with my mind. i'm an adventurous soul, a free spirit, and a wild wanderer. but i'm bogged down by physical pain, it's depressing.

i feel like snowboarding, and doing new things that are challenging as such, help the depression, but make the pain worse.

i'm caught in the cycle again. i've felt like this before. i know i'll get out of it. but right now this is the worst i've felt in a long time.

anyway the diagnosis is: degenerative joint loss in low back, somewhat herniated disc in low back, somewhat herniated disc is lumbard.

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