no wonder he acted funny.. I guess he liked me but didnt feel the right to claim me. He told me before he left that his friend will buddy up to me and try to turn me against him, I didnt understand that until tonight.


tonight sucked. The friend that keeps asking me out started getting peeved when I kept denying him and asked if I knew why my neighbor boy went on the trip to germany. I got on edge knowing that he was going to try to make me mad at my neighbor. he told me that he went to visit his girlfriend in germany. I didnt expect that.. needless to say I was getting out of my car the same time and ended up locking my keys in and having to call AAA ten at night -_- His friend said that he felt it wouldnt hurt to have a girlfriend in two different countries because theyd never find out. And here I thought he was a skinny red-head with no game. heartbroken? no. definately annoyed and saddened. he cheated on his girl and lied to me. Im going to make him feel so guilty when he gets back. Im good at that. no cry-fests yelling bullshit, he wasnt my boyfriend, but Ill give back his movies and stop speaking with him. As for his friend, he's of no use to me. Seems like a shitty friend for ratting him out to a girl he just met so he can get pussy. Which will not happen -_- Sigh.
So I want companionship but its just not in the cards for me. Im just going to take my sexual needs out on my 32yr old booty call and keep to myself, work and school. Screw all these backstabbing boys. Wonder if dating a girl would be any different

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