Originally Posted by
Indus18
I'm confused as hell. I told her I'm not going to ask her again, so she should come talk to me if she realizes she wants to change things between us, but considering that she's only one of TWO people i've slept with now, I"M suddenly feeling used, and very confused. Anyone who bothered to read all that have any insight they'd like to offer?
Yeah! Okay!
She liked you, and wanted to push her luck with you.. So when she came into your room, she came in with the intention of one-upping things a little bit.. but her emotions & feelings got the best of her, and she couldn't resist the urge to express her affection towards you.. So she kissed you, one thing lead to an other.. we know how it goes..
So what happened? After that point, she felt attached, connected, a sense of some bond between the two of you.. But as you said, you weren't on the same page.. (this is why i'm against one-night-stands, because recently, i've actually been on her end of one, and it's not a pretty place to be in)
I believe my brother gave me this peom to read once, about how love is like a silk prison, you have the physical power to escape, because the bars are not made of iron.. at least you could bang your head against iron.. but you don't have the emotional strength to espace.. everytime she stands on top of you, with her naked body, looking into your eyes, to find love.. you don't want to lie.. and when she doesn't find love, she'll settle for hope.. and so you find yourself trapped in this silk prison..
The reason she reacted this way, is because she doesn't want to settle for hope.. She's heartbroken now that she knows that you don't feel the same way.. the feeling of "hope" is starting to creep up in her mind.. "maybe if I make him jealous, maybe if I cut him off and stop talking to him, maybe he'll chase after me, maybe he'll come get me, and want me".. That's the thought process.. but it's not in words, it's mostly just a feeling.. a burning fire that's motivating her to do these things and act this way..
And what you're doing, is giving this fire, fuel to burn on.. Everytime you deny her, every time you tell her that you're not going to speak to her again, when you ignore her.. She's feeling more like an idiot for what she did.. that night with you..
This is why she "feels" like a "wh0re".. because she now realizes that you didn't feel the same way.. you're not giving her back the same level of affection she gave you.. The feeling isn't mutual.. so what she "means" is that she feels like an idiot..
The considerate thing to do is, to meet up with her in person, or call her back and talk to her.. tell her:
"Look, i've been doing some thinking about everything you told me.. And I just thought that you should know, that what happened that night, wasn't one way.. And when you came back in the morning.. there's a reason the door to my room was open.. there's a reason it wasn't locked.. i'm the one who left it unlocked.. I didn't want to lock you out after we had sex.. I wanted you to come back.. think about it.. So, I don't want you to feel like a wh0re for what happened that night between us.. because that's not at all how I feel about it.. If I had the energy from the night before, i'd wake up and pay more attention to you, but I was just tired, i'm sorry.. and.. you're really nice.. but you also know my schedule.. you know how my life is right now.. you've seen it for yourself.. and I don't want what we have to be like those two nights.. where it's one night of sex, and then one night where i'm too tired to turn around and pay any attention to you because i'm exhausted.. we both don't want that.. that's why I told you, that I don't think it's going to work out.. what we had was great.. it was sweet and thoughtful of you, and I can't say anyone has every done that before.. it meant a lot.. but it can't go on.. so we should just stop this and move on.."
Best,
GrkScorp