I'm sorry it's been a while since i've posted. GrkScorp, I just want to thank you so much for the time you took to write everything. I was doing some thinking in the past week about everything you said. I looked at my life and realized the mistakes i've been doing. I took a look at some of your other posts and it all started to make sense. I don't feel like a different person, just a better person. I think it has more to do with what you said about discovering yourself and being more aware of who you are.

I wouldn't be posting again if I didn't have good news. I saw her this Monday during my lunch break with an other group of people she works with in her department. I was with some other people. When I saw her, without even thinking about it, I just went up to her to casually say hi and not bother pretending I didn't know who she was and all that stuff I would have normally done. She opened up right away and we started talking with her group. We were all just talking about work, so it was nothing too special. Then one of her friends actually asked if I was the guy who put the manager in place. We had a lot of fun talking about that.

Yesterday during our lunch break, one of her friends came up to ask me if I wanted to come with them for lunch. We went to this soup place and again just talked casually. During that conversation, the girl i'm interested in was looking at me the whole time while her friend was asking me questions like if I was seeing someone else right now and about my past relationships. Before we left, I told them that today I was going to go to a sushi place because I haven't had sushi in such a long time.

Today, I went down to her department and we left together to go get lunch. She hates sushi but said that she thought it would be much worse but after comming to try it didn't feel it was so bad as people make it out to be. We had a more intimate and much deeper conversation since it was the two of us. Without even thinking, I was just qualifying her and getting to know her. Somewhere between all that she now wanted to get to know me.

We both realized that we were going to be late and had to get back. I thought we both had a great time, it felt like the right thing to do so when the check came she first offered to split but then I offered to get it. She asked if I was sure and if it was ok and I said that it wasn't a big deal. On our way back to the office, we were talking about what plays and musical productions are playing. She asked me if I ever saw some play, I told her that i've never actually been to a play. So I just suggested casually that we should go see one sometime, and I left it at that. Before we came close to the office, she gave me her number and told me to find a play that I think I would be interested in. Then we both went back to work.

After work, I resisted calling her for dinner on the same night. That would have been a little too much I think. But I called her just now when I got back home, and we talked for close to an hour or two. We made plans to go see something this Saturday. That was in the middle of the conversation. Then I told her that I had to go but we would finish talking over lunch tomorrow. I closed the phone and couldn't believe it. You have no idea how great she looks and how amazing she is as a person. I just felt like a dream had come true. You just changed my life man. This forum rocks my socks! I'm sorry, i'm just really happy right now, i'll stop.