So maybe some of You were reading my last thread,and know what was going on...Well it's more than few weeks after.Things are starting to get more clear. So ,we didn't talk for more than month and for about 2 weeks ago he found my account on facebook.And we started first to send some mails on facebook.He added me to his friends .Actually at the beginning we didn't talk about some serious things.Just like that.Actually sometimes he was jealous,about some pictures or what...So about week ago we started to talk on MSN.first we were joking and so,but after we started to talk about our memories.He told me he miss me,and so did I.We were talking about places where we were ,his familly... He told me he restart his studies(he quit for his ex to move to her city to be closer to her and she has cheated on him) so he will need my help in english and german
Actually I'm very happy about it,there's never too late to get more educated.And I told him that I am coming to France in june (because my sister will get married).So he started to say "ohh so we will go to Amiens to my grandparents and if I will have time we will go to Paris to my parents" etc.Honestly,I'm very happy about it,I really like his familly and I would like to see them too.He also asked me if someone has touched me during this time.I said that even if there would be any opportunity,I wouldn't do that,because I'm not the kind of girls who are healing their brokenhearts in another man's arms.He said he doesn't belive me.So I said he should because I've never lied to him.Heh,one time when my camera was on he saw that I am writing to another person at 2 in the morning.He said "stop talking with some stupid I don't know who!!",and he just disconnected.lol
So we were talking almoust every day till 2 or 3 in the morning.And so about 2 days ago I decided to ask him "what does he feel now" he said he doesn't know.So I asked him a second question "Does he see any sense to rebuil our relationship?" and he told me "we will see how it will be in june".Honestly?I totally agree that.Of course I was acting like I'm not going to be with him again and so and so... But I kept feeling inside that I still want to try,for the last time.Maybe some will say that I'm stupid or naive...But I don't want to regret someday that I didn't try,the last time.That I didn't check.Besides,this time I'm calmer.I don't react rashly and how I said in on post "I'm looking at it standing aside".Of course I'm not totallyindifferent,but I think it's ok.
There's one thing more.I decided not to tell it nobody...I told it only to my best friend.She said it is my choice,and she can't tell me what to do.Actually I didn't ask her.I just didn't want to keep it totally in a secret.We all know it's nothing good.Besides I know how peaople would react.What would they say.It wouldn't change my decision,but it would make it much harder.And if I am moving from here in about 2 months... They don't have to know,right?I will see what time shows.I can't be more disappointed than I was ,so it can't be worst,it can only be better.
Last time I was talking with my dad about my sister (he's not accepting her future husband,actually because he's not catolic-calling it gently , but he's a good man) and I told him so :"Look You even didn't talk to him so how can You judge him?She's going to do what she wants,and You're not going to change her mind.And I'm not going to change her mind either.I'm not going to complicate her life telling that she's acting wrong and so,but I am going to support her."
I hope she would lsay the same thing if she would know...