Originally Posted by
DoesntMatter 
I feel like such shit
I was having an OK day until I kept seeing all these couples together and whatever, and unfortunately overhearing other peoples conversations and then hearing about how several of my friends hooked up last night. And then I just thought about some girl I used to like at work who was 1 year younger than me, and when my sister asked if I thought she was cute and I said yeah, my sister laughed and told me she was dating another guy who worked nearby and was in his late 20s
I don't even know what to say because I feel so bad. I feel so bad all I can think of is rattling off endless clips into these guys' chests and breaking their skull with a nice wooden AK stock and beating their corpse into a bloody pile of shit. I'm convinced people don't even think of me as a person because they consider other peoples as to having requirements that I don't
And today I saw a nice easily identifiable car that I remember first semester started honking at me and all the people inside shouted obscenities on like a Friday or Saturday night probably going to a party while I was crossing an intersection coming back from the library, and thought "Shit, if I ever see that car and the person in it I'm going apeshit". Well I saw it today and wanted to beat the driver and everyone in the cars head in with a metal bat and make them the recipient of my anger because they definitely warranted it. Of course in daylight in front of anyone and showing an attitude like that is not smart. You gotta strike when the time is right
God I want to kick their soft stomaches in until they barf up endless pools of blood and just empty slugs into their ****KING HEADS GOD FUCCKING DAMNIT!
Oh yeah, it occured to me how much I would love to kill some motherfuccker in front of their girlfriend if they try belittling me in any way in front of their girl, because why would they need to justify themselves to their girl in that way?
God, haha, why, how Christian your thoughts are.
Only kidding, don't take that to heart. Be happy for your friends; don't envy them. A friend of mine came back from a party this evening with a girl, and I will admit, I am a little jealous, but it doesn't really bother me. In fact, I am happy for him, because I think that guy is still a virgin, and he is such a nice guy that he deserves this girl that seems like she's nice. You don't need to sit down and beat yourself over it, or compare yourself, or be jealous. Better yet, you SHOULD be observing yourself, as well as your friends, figure out what makes the women like them, figuring what you're doing wrong and leave it at that.
Do you think a woman would want to date a guy with your attitude? What if you did get a girlfriend, and she read this post? What would she think? She would probably be very disturbed, and intimidated by you. Would probably ruin it right then and there. What's with all the violence? My brain never functions on that wavelength. It seems like you've had the last straw, and your saying **** it. I'll admit it, I was actually quite disturbed by the post. Scary that people think about such things. I think you just need to cool down. People screaming stuff at you in their car? Just smile, wave, and continue with your day. It's only something if it bothers you. Make it nothing. Laugh it off. The joke's on them.
You don't need to assert yourself. You need to focus on you. Your life is about you. Don't be so quick to judge. Put yourself in other peoples' shoes. Keep your head on your shoulders, boy.