I may have suffered from depression - I think it started 2 years ago when I was 14.
I'm not sure how I cope, I don't really.
I don't turn to alcohol when I am at my lowest. I don't take drugs or smoke. I don't talk about my problems, I don't eat, exercise, listen to music or do anything. I just exist. Sometimes I go days where I feel so....empty or... like my mind is somewhere else. But over the years, not all of it came back - I lost a certain part of me - up in that place where my mind wanders - and I got scared that one day - I'd have disappeared forever.
But I rely only on my brain to sort myself out. Anything else is a temporary escape. It's like, my body began to feel this sadness, and so I believe that it can begin to feel happiness again. Of course help from others is also good as when you're depressed you don't always shed light on all possible solutions.
But I hope that you can overcome this dark time in your life
I'm starting to feel much happier finally after all this time and I feel it was partly because I was so determined to feel that way again.
Best Wishes,
xxxxxx