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I have a therapist, but I can't afford that kind of therapist. I'm in the works on trying to finding another one. My doctor is moving on to a private practice and I certainly can't afford his rates, and my current Psychologist just puts his feet up and listens....He came highly recommended and from other people he came highly recommended but he's not my kind of guy.

There are so many crazy things going on in my life. My wife is the only stable element in my life, and did I mention that we don't live together. It's a little crazy, but we loped last year and we have been trying to get our own place for a year now, but her bills, loans, and credit card bills (Which have been canceled) are way to much. Her parents help, but it's barely touched the tip of the iceberg. I have a roommate that gives her the creeps, but she stays here quite often. The only thing that stops her from staying longer is that she's an art student and I don't have the space for her equipment, our problem is lack of planning.

My mother in law has extended me the courtesy of letting me stay at her house, but she is a holy roller and a control freak. I would rather stay with things as they are before I let her meddle in my life. I haven't been at her house in 5 months, the last time I went over my ex wife broke the windows and constantly called the police saying that I was beating my current wife. The police her in Chicago don't play games with that. So I decided on those reasons on not spending anytime there. Mostly because of my Mom in law, she's a nice person, but I wouldn't want to spend to much time with her.

My roommate is a *ucking moron and although he's 34, he has a 13 year old mentality. He literally can not think for himself and my wife and I need to get out of here, it's that we would both would have to take 2 jobs, plus school for the both of us to keep up with our bills...

Whew....I said it