Ok, second night a row of this. Dreamt I was with Kyle in the war and he was shot dead in front of me. GAAAAAAAAAAAWD, geezuz, and again, my x. The thing though is that I havent truly thought of him in like 8 years. But its like he's coming to me for some damn thing. He really burned me. He told me in my dream he still loved me, but he was at my house where my husband and I live. WTF? I honestly do not want anything with him. I'm truly happy with my husband. Our relationship just gets stronger. The last few weeks have been tremendous.
I'm not taking any pills either. Usually if Im taking a pain killer that will do it, or if Im watching some show right before bed it preempts something. This is why I'm perplexed. My life is so good. I got up this morning and right away told my husband I loved him. I mean truly we have been happy. My son is happy, I miss him bad. And I have been thinking about the military, which by the way he's getting disqualified. He was trying to get out, and the Lt. didnt like his discharge papers, so he told him he could get out with the fact he doesnt have a high school diploma, he does, he has a GED, but its not from a credited High School per say. So my whole family is relieved. His best friend who didnt pass bootcamp, failed his PT test, he's being shipped out to Iraq in June, his other best friend from here, who went from the Marines to the Army, thought he was safe because he changed careers, he's also being shipped to Iraq in June. I'm thankful Kyle changed his mind. I'm NOT disappointed him, thats the mother talking.
Anyway, for the x, geezuz, its beyond me. Wait, I've had a few people around me talking about their x's, I wonder...even though I didnt' talk about him, maybe it just triggered my thoughts. Yea that's it. I LOVE MY LIFE! and my HUSBAND!
