but pettit-papillon, how could i be friends with him when i love him very much still?? i'll just keep loving him and missing him and hate myself everytime i think he will be with someone else if i will keep communicating with him.

it was too soon that i still cant think of other things other than wishing i could have him back and make him change his decision...

but then. i dont want him back if he doesnt love me so much anymore. i need a guy who will love me more than i love him.

and yeah, it's lesson learned on my part to never give my all and leave something for myself, too.