I don't know why...I just feel down for some reason. It's weird, for a little over a month I just haven't been feeling myself. I've pretty much stopped working out, I'm doing terrible in soccer and I think it has to do with how I'm feeling, and I'm starting to eat terrible and it's showing. I've gained about 5lbs in just that month. I know it may not seem like a lot but that's saying a lot for someone as skinny as me.

I don't like going to the gym or running anymore for some reason, which I used to be addicted to. I tried to go a few times but I just don't feel all there. At school I feel like things are hopeless but I'm doing completely fine in my classes. I've joined a few different clubs and I'm having fun, last night was probably one of the best nights I've had in college. But I just feel like something's not there and missing. I've never really felt this way. I don't think it's that I'm wanting a relationship, although it would be nice. But I also have kind of realized I'm not quite ready for another one. It's only been about 4 months and I'm broke.

I applied for an internship that I've wanted for quite a while and had my interview today and think it went pretty well. I don't understand why I feel like this though. Hell, not that long ago I had almost an entire carton of ice cream! I never eat like that, I can't even remember the last time I had ice cream. I feel like a hormonal pregnant woman. I just feel like crap for some reason.