So here are the latest developments, saw the wife again today, she was supposed to come over to see our son, but being a naturally quiet lad that didn't last anytime at all!. We went through the usual charade where I become, lets say a little agitated at her seeming inability to see what she has done to me, us our family. We then calmed down (par for the course) and decide to write an adhock separation agreement (but was not allowed to title it as such!) We get through such difficult issues as finances, who has what out of the house ect with very little pain or grief. She then mentions something about pensions which we cannot agree on and it all blows up again. I basically confess to her that for me to get over her I need her to hate me to make it easier for me, then I can hate her (hate is a bit too strong a word, but I think you know what I mean!) With this she breaks down, saying that whatever I did as retribution she could never hate me but will always love me, that she misses me so much and misses making love to me! With this we fall into a passionate kiss on the bed, with only the fact that mother nature was in attendance preventing us making love there and then! As I kiss her she starts crying saying she is such a terrible person. We talk a little more,and she leaves, back to her affair! Her reluctance to finalise anything leaves me to beleive that doubts are setting into her mind-additionally the police force she belongs to have taken it upon theirselves to transfer her, and the adulterer she is with to another prescinct , together and on the same shift pattern. I was surprised to hear that that is bad news for her and that she is trying to appeal the decision saying that she would not get to see us as it is further away and that she did not want to spend all day at work with him and have to live with him also! To say I am confused is an understatement, but I guess her confussion must be twice mine, right? She is coming around again Monday but am a little apprehensive about what may possibly happen after todays events. When it comes to my wife I'm a fairly weak man, I can't resist her outer beauty and the way she makes me feel when I am with her, despite all that has gone before she still sets my skin tingling and heart racing. Am I loosing my dignity to by getting karnal or is this part of the process of slowly getting her back because she still wants me sexually? As you can probably guess i am on something of a high at the moment but she now has two days to spend with the other person in this mess, so if anybody like to give me a reality check please do!