I don't know why i have become like this. I was never like this in relationships. I always went on, no problem. Obviously I still care about her, which makes me want to hold on her. I would never do things like that for someone that I didin't even care about. And like I said, I had lots of opportunities to continue and go on with someone else. But I couldn't. And for 2 months I know it sounds ridiculous to think like this. It's insane, but i spend so much time with her and she was really different from any girl i knew. So it's not just something i am refusing to let go.