i can understand where you're coming from in the sense that even though the realtionship was short lived it was more meaningful than others ever have been that may have been way longer. sometimes people just do that, they CHANGE you, they affect your soul like others never could.

you will get over this with time...but you have to let yourself. it doens't matter how long it takes because either 1)one day it will just click and ou'll get over it or 2) it'll slowly go away with time.

it'll probably be accompanied by realizeing that other people out there are just as great as her even if in different ways. one day someone will exceed your expectations that this past girlfriend has made attain after dating her...and it's okay to have these expectations because relatioships are about learning what you want in one. we shuld always be raising our expectations (not excessively but just to the point where we finally know what we want in a realtionship).

just give it time...i know you have been...but maybe you should tell yourself this is the last time that you're going to contact her and it's kind of a bid farewell.

my advice for right now: get back into things. dropping out of school adn quitting everything you used to do is a very bad thing to do because these are the things that define your life, who you are and where you are going...and these are the things you can always turn to when people let you down. so you need to get these thigns back, even if they don't make you happy right now you will regret giving them up later and in time they will slowly become important to you again. trust me i know because this is what i've recentely been going through and still am...you jus thave to trudge with it and eventually everything will fall back into place again.