| hi dude..am first for you are going trough..i dont know if that can make you feel better but am gonna tell you my story anyway...here is what i was thinking about 3 days :
i really dont know where i should start all this....am writing this and my eyes full of tears...my life has really changed 2 weeks ago....i have been with my girlfriend for 5 months and after all what i did to her...she dumped me for her ex
i really feel like i wana just sleep and never wake up again....i spend the whole day thinking the nice moments that we shared...the moments when she asked me to swear to never let her down...to never betray or cheat on her...the moments when she used to ask how many children we gona have...the moments that she spent when she used to say that there is only me...that i was the one for her...that i was everything she wanted from this life...that she cant imagine herself having sex with someone else..that if i let her down, that she will never ever get along with someone else...that she found everything she wanted in me...and finally the moments when she used to say that she will love me forever..
we lived really wonderful moments..spend times that i wont forget...i really gave her all what i had..i made her a priority...all my life was based on me being with her..i did never refuse something to her...and was the nicest guy she can ever find...and after all that....she coldly dumped for me for her ex...i cant stop thinking of him and her...it sucks when i think that she now with her ex having fun...maybe sleeping together...her ex that she kept on saying that she hates...that all he cared about was having sex with her....that he didnt care enough about her..was not enough open minded...and cant imagine living with him for the rest of her life.
i just want this to stop...it has been 2 weeks now and am still crying as many tears as i did in the first day...still hurts bad as the same day...spend the whole day crying...am so sad and am living the sadest days of my life....never thought that she could do that to me. i really cant stop thinking if we gona be back together or not...of what am gona do without her...and when is she going to ask me back to be with her.
and more, she just coldly told me today that they decided to get engaged this summer because she loves him SO SO MUCH and nothing is gonna stop them from doing so.
and i have to see her everyday at school..sit next to her everyday in he school bus...i have to see her having fun with her friends...talking on the phone to her ex...and not even showing one sight of regret.
what did i do to deserve all this ? i cant believe that she is doing this to me..only 2 weeks of our breakup...i just wanna die guys
and here where i am today :
i broke up with my girlfriend 3 weeks ago..3 weeks of real pain...yesterday, i got the worst news of my life..and i dont know how, today was happiest day since our breakup...whenever memories tried to take over my mind...i just kept on saying no no...she is gone...thinking back of the nice moments that we shared wont change anything...i have o think of myself first...enjoy being single...anyway she didnt deserve even a bit of me...if she thinks i wasnt the right one for her..thousands of other girl would surely think i am...she made her decision and she had to deal with it..she is gonna regret it someday...she is gonna regret it someday...she is gonna regret it someday...and that day wil be the happiest day of my life.
hope that helps you too...say thanks to god anyway..thinks of what you have, not of what you dont have...
hope that helped you dude !!!
we will go over it..dont worry  |