I was married to a man like yourself, and had a father the same way. It was a terrible lifestyle....my family growing up always see sawed between prosperity and almost being on welfare. My mom had to work constantly and take care of the house....she was a wreck. My ex husband did the same, and he almost wrecked me. I left him when I recognized the pattern early.

Bottom line is, have some goals for youself. Do you realize you need to start off small and grow in your career? You're not just going to go out and make the big money right away....you need to WORK. HARD. Gain some respect, some recognition. People don't just get handed high salaries because they want them. I can't guarantee a change in your way of thinking and working is going to get your gf back, but it might. Regardless, even if it doesn't, you still need to put yourself on the right path....for YOUR sake.

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