When I'm alone I tend to sink or swim. Often I get tired of sinking so I swim real hard and it's nice for awhile I think I'm getting somewhere. But then I'll get tired of swimming and get a cold or something and have to wait and then I'll realize that I really did not get anywhere all too worthwhile so I decide to just sink again.

It's a sh*t pattern and one I would probably have less trouble with if my goals were more realistic or my perspective less so.

I have time for no one and no one has time for me.