Hahaha, thanks, maybe I just needed some firm encouragement.

The loss I'm afraid of though - I'm worried that if I totally just present myself in the way you suggested, and she said no... I could totally get over the rejection, but trying to maintain just a friendship afterwords now that there's that pressure there seems impossible. That's really what I'm afraid of losing, I don't know if I could forgive myself if I was too forward or reckless and lost any sense of friendship.