just wanted to say thanks for all the replys ive gotten about this, sorry i hadnt been around...things really havent changed. We talk basically every night not necessarily about us but just talk.....today tho i got off early and she was online so we started talking and she says shes been thinking about what she wants alot today and goes on to tell me she just wants to be alone for awhile, she feels bad etc, like shes dragging me along for something she doesnt want, says everytime we talk she ends up crying after we hang up....(i guess i need a womens translation for that, is she crying because she still is in love with me or because she feels bad?...i dont know) then we talk more about it and i say: "In all honesty is this what you really want, can you not see us together? being married. etc the whole nine yards....she then says shes just ****ed up...honestly she has no damn idea..t.hen says she needs to get back to work...i tell her i love her...and ask if we will talk tonight and she says shes got to figure this out 100% and when she does she will call me...until then she doesnt want to talk to me over the phone or see me...we can still comunicate over instant messaging or myspace, i asked if she still has any feelings for me like she used too and she says she does...to please just trust her thats all shes asking, she knows shes horrible for doing it and apologizes to me for it but she needs this for her.....theres not much i can really say or do so i say ok...am i doing the right thing or am i really reading it right and i think to myself that what she has already told me is what she wants to begin with? i guess i feel no speaking to me is just going to help her distance herself from me......i dont know any and all advice is deffinatly appreciated guys n gals....


thanks,
Colt