hey guys, i appreciate everything you said and thank you..
DM: yeah i think so too.. just hope i will get through this soon enough with no major damage
ILLUSIONAL: unfortunately it did happen.. but i basically dont think all guys are alike. just that i can't help but think hard and let my guards up every time somebody flirts with me.. makes me think what their motives could be. ever since, i really have issues on deception that's why it's really hard for me right now.
LILWING: i guess it will take some time again for me to trust somebody. but i know i should learn how to trust again.. one way or another.
TONE: yeah you're right.."Nothing worth having comes easy". i will always keep that in mind.
MISOMBRA: i guess im still in the process of adjusting to the new me.. but i honestly didnt want to hurt anyone else's feelings. i just want to be honest with everybody. i don't want to miss and lose those people who could be true and sincere with me so i guess i have to tone it down. but as you said, i could only prove who those real people are if they will still have me no matter what i have said...
MISHANYA: you summed it all up for me very well.. and i agree this defense i have put on is hurting me more than helping me else i wouldnt have felt this way. you've just enlightened me.
damn.. experience really IS a hard teacher. it gives the test first and the lesson afterwards.
