| I will. "Grandma" said "I don't know what Nancy will say about you coming...oh screw it, I want you to come, you better come visit us!" (jokingly) I told her I would be sure to and i'm bringing some xmas lights as my excuse as asked by Grandma for a birthday party decoration.
It's kind of ironic. The more I compare Betty and myself, the more similarities and life experiences relationship-wise, we've shared. It's like we kind of equal out in the equation of everything. I don't know if that's always good or not, but it's interesting nonetheless. At least i'm happy that with what she's been through, she seems to KNOW what she wants and is ACCEPTING of that, instead of fighting herself because she isn't sure. I think she knows her doubts of me are a result of her past and she understands that and is trying to base what I/We have done/showed each other rather then what her ex has done. It is difficult at times and I know this first hand also. I am understanding about it. I'm curious how I can go out Tonight or Sat night and ease her worries without looking like i'm adjusting my life to fit all her concerns. You know what I mean? I want us to live our lives and trust, but I don't want to be a dick and be like "Well, I want to go out with my friends, you can worry all you want but i'm not going to mess around. I know you trust me but that you'll worry and I can't do anything about that." I know it's kinda unfair in a way, but also that there will always be concerns at time and that I shouldn't have to change my life/friends to accomodate her and vise versa. I KNOW she is not asking for that (like Robin was) but it's still kinda a torn feeling with that I feel good for going out with friends, but bad that i'm causing her some grief and self doubt.
What do you think I should tell her or do to ease her mind?
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