Your words are so touching and I got what you mean because I have been through three or more painful trials to get my life back with my ex but never succeded, simply it did not work out and I gained nothing but more sorrow and pains as well as deep regrets. I started to believe that once a relationship is broken, it is broken forever and one can never get it back the way it was. If you faithfully tried, you might be back for a shortwhile then old problems enriched with bad memories will float to the surface and act to break again this relation. I hope your trial will be more successful than mine. Forget what I said, it was a painful personal experience which I hope doesnt deter you from getting back to ur love.