Dear (partner),


As you have become aware over the last few weeks, I'm the sort of person who likes to write my thoughts and feelings down. It helps me get through tough times like I am currently experiencing. So I just wanted to write you this letter to let you know the things that are on my mind about you, our relationship, and us. Please keep this letter safe, and read it whenever you think of me.

Over two years have passed since the day my heart found love for you, and when my life changed forever. This time together has undoubtedly been the best years of my life. This is despite my marriage break up and all of the sacrifices made, and the loss of my job. I disappointed my family and lost a lot of friends to be with you. In contrast, the last few weeks have been the worst time of my life. It has been so difficult to see the love of my life slip away. It has been an extremely painful experience.

There was something about you that made me feel like I had never felt before. When I looked at you, nothing could turn my eyes away. When I held you, it felt as if we were the only two who existed. No one else mattered.

I remember my friends and family questioning if we had a future together when we first met. My parents, (friend), and (friend) all said to me at one stage to be careful, because due to our age difference, things might not last long. I had considered this too, but because I started falling in love with you, I wanted to believe that we would be together forever. Over time, they too believed that this was not going to be something brief. I realised that you were a much more mature person than you age, and over time forgot there was an age difference between us. I now reflect on this and wonder if the age difference was a major factor in our break up. Perhaps you feel that you have so much more in life to experience.

Initially I thought why a gorgeous young woman like you was so interested in me. I suffered with terrible insecurities about our relationship, thinking that you would soon find someone better and leave me. These insecurities started to disappear the closer we grew to each other. I also used to say to you a lot that "you better keep that for when we break up". Sometimes I can still hear your voice telling me that we will never break up. But that is all gone now. Sometimes I cry myself to sleep wishing I still had you. Being in your arms again is something I dream about often.

Over time, I started to fall deeper and deeper in love with you, and suspected that you were doing the same. Our relationship was built on a foundation of love and respect. It gave me that warm fuzzy feeling, making my head spin and my heart race. Those feelings were new to me, and created only by you.

Being a typical guy, I always had trouble with saying 'I love you'. My feelings for your were sure, but I seemed to have difficulties in expressing it verbally. I would always skirt around this area by saying or doing cryptic things. I would say "you must be blind" (i.e. blinded by love), and write I LOVE YOU...R HAIR on you back in bed. I think you knew what I was trying to say, but it was no substitute for telling you properly. It became a game after a while, threatening to tell me 'mushies' if I didn't do something. I know I cannot turn back time, but I only wish I told you earlier that I loved you. I really regret never properly doing so. I long for the times that you would kiss me goodnight and whisper "I love you" softly into my ear. I would always go to sleep with a big smile on my face and content in my heart.

You were always willing to support me in everything I did and experienced. One particular time I really appreciated you support was during the period that I was unemployed. I went through some pretty low times, but you pulled me through every time. For that I offer you a tremendous amount of gratitude, and truly appreciate your support. I cannot thank you more for your help and love during this tough time.

I cherish the really good times we had together. It's the simple things that make the most difference for me. Things like going for walks together, shopping, cuddling up in front of the TV watching our favourite programmes together, going out together, laughing, 'tickle time', talking, making love, going to bed and waking up next to each other every morning, trying new things, having fun together...the list goes on. These things will be in my heart and memories forever.

I regret the terrible things I have said to you. I tended to open my mouth without thinking, which was totally unfair on you. I've made huge mistakes with the subjects of marriage and children. Nothing would have made me a happier man than to hold you as my wife, and being the proud father of our children. The prettiest thing I could imagine is seeing you walk down the aisle towards me in white, about to become my wife. And nothing would have made me more satisfied than being the father of our children. I understand the mistakes I have made and am prepared to confront the consequences.

I know that I handled the situation with my ex wife really badly. I never intended this. All I ever wanted to do was keep my old life separate from my new life with you. I acknowledge that I did it all wrong, and hurt you in the process. I should never have hurt my one true love, but I did and I will never forgive myself for that.

Please also remember the good things that I brought to our relationship. Although I find it hard to talk about myself, I feel that I displayed some really good qualities to you. Remember when you first experienced those excruciating stomach pains? I was so worried about you that I rushed you to the hospital during the middle of the night. My loving and caring for you made me so concerned about your well being. My generous nature also allowed me to share everything I had with you. It made me so satisfied that you were comfortable in our home. I was very dependable for you. If I said I would do something with or for you, I would do so. I never like to let anyone down. As I've already mentioned, we had some really fun times. Having fun is one of the qualities I liked to share the most with you. I have never lied to you, and being honest with the people I love is the only thing I can do. I have never put on a front to you, as I believe that being genuine and sincere are two of the most important things in a relationship. I am always well presented, and this was a trait that you liked in me. I was always interested in what you had to say and were doing. You were fond of my personality, and the humour I displayed constantly. I found with tremendous joy that it was easy for me to make you laugh and smile.

I've read a lot of information on relationships over the past few weeks, and found that one of the most important aspects is communication. We had love, caring, trust, honesty, loyalty and attraction in our relationship, but perhaps the thing that was missing was communication. I was lousy at telling you how I felt, and you seemed to have trouble telling me towards the end. This may have been the ultimate cause of our break up, and I sincerely apologise for not communicating my feelings with you more often.

I consider you as being the perfect woman for me. There is honestly nothing about you that I did not like. You are a very loving, caring, honest, loyal, and trustworthy person. You are exceptionally attractive in terms of physical beauty, to the point where I would quietly go weak at the knees every time you entered the room. As well as your obvious outer beauty, I was also really attracted to your inner beauty. I could see things in you that no one else could. My deep love for you made this more obvious. Every time you look into the mirror, remember that you are the most beautiful girl in the world, because that's what I think every time I look at you. And every time I close my eyes, I see your image and fall in love with you again.

You are a very fun person to be with, which made me want to spend so much time with you. Your personality is better than anything I could ever imagine. You are always optimistic about things, which was a good compliment to my sometimes pessimistic view on things. You made me feel like a complete person when you were with me. Nothing ever made me feel as happy as when you were by my side.

I literally enjoyed spending every spare moment together with you. My workday went fast at the prospect of coming home to you every night. I always looked forward to weekends where we could spend even more time together and grow our love together. I suppose this is a natural situation for any serious relationship. I never wanted to smother you, but I loved you and cared for you so much that I wanted to spend my every waking moment with you.