Well, Fawn, she's no angle in the sex department. She has had sex with 9 guys already. But she's not a slut ( i dont think ).

And she has a really slow metabolism, and the B.C. she is on (depo shot) she said made her gain a bunch of weight...

Killerbabe, when I say "super model hot" I mean "so beautiful every man one the planet want to get with her"... Or in other words, extremely skinny with not too big boobs and a little bubble butt, perfect teeth, beautiful face, with no fat what-so-ever, etc etc etc...

Jslaughter, sweetdreamz, I have already gotten her to play baseball with me and my friends (well - we went to the batting cages and she actually wanted to get out there and bat - its a start i guess). But I dont want to force her to do physical activities in hopes that she will loose weight - its just, well, wrong. And that night we were at the batting cages her weight didn't cross my mind, we were all just having fun.

Maybe it isn't her weight at all, maybe subconciously her age is nagging at me and I am just looking for reasons to back out... ****, i dont know.

I had to lie to my family and say she is 18. They still kinda freaked out about her being so young, so I can only imagine what they would say if they knew she was 17....

Maybe I am just scared I will be hurt again.. The last time I met a 17 y/o and got with her we lasted for 2 years. When she hit 18 and finished school (dropped out) she kinda was entered into a whole new world. She grew up, and ended growing opposite of me and she left. Maybe I am scared Jeni will grow up and realize I am not the kind of guy she wants...

Or maybe its something else that I cant pinpoint yet...

****ing hell ! I am thinking too damn much. I should just do like I always do. Go with the flo, expect the worst, and hope for the best. Then I'll eventually fall in love, then she'll grow up/get skinny and leave me for some attractive guy... Then I will be back to where I was 5 months ago. Rock Bottom.

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