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xL0v3Su1c1d3x · #7 (**permalink**) 28-07-04, 01:57 PM

It's been over a month since I've posted and a lot has happened with this dilemma I've been going through. First of all, this guy and I weren't really talking all that much because I thought he was pissed at me, but I decided to instant message him one day and he acted as if nothing had happened at all. Since then, we still didn't talk very much because I didn't know what to talk to him about. This went on for a few weeks. I noticed that he had been recently changing his profile and where he used to plaster his girlfriend's name all over it, he would have sad faces next to her name. He finally got down to the point where he didn't have a single thing in his profile that had to deal with her. I decided to instant message him last night, since I hadn't talked to him in such a long time and he acted like he used to before he even went out with that girl. He talked to me a lot more and was telling me how he ended up breaking up with that girl because she would never call him. He had to go and felt really bad about it, but he said "sweet dreams" to me, which is something he always said to me when he liked me. Of course, I was in a great mood because he was no longer taken and it sounded as if he liked me. Well, I talked to him online today and he kept rambling on about how high he was and that he smoked a lot of pot all day, even when he was at the skatepark. I was like, "You smoke pot?!" and he's like, "Yeah, you didn't know that? Oh, by the way, I'm now a pothead and a skater punkass bitch!" Okay, I'll clear a few things up here. Awhile ago, he admitted to me that he smoked a cigarette every once in a while, but he didn't do it all the time, only once a month. I don't know if this is the total truth or not because he knows I'm against drugs and smoking. Well, the girl he was going out with happened to be gothic, and I have nothing against gothic people at all, but she smokes frequently and I'm guessing that she probably does drugs too. I get the the feeling that she's influenced him to become this new person who skateboards and smokes pot. Once again, I have nothing against skateboarders at all, in fact, I'm happy that he skateboards now, but he's turned into the "stereotypical skateboarder" and I don't like it at all, but I still really like him a lot. I told my best friend about this and she told me that she doesn't want me to like him or hang around him anymore. For a moment, I thought I was over my obsession with him, but since I talked to him last night, I've started to like him even more. I have never smoked or done drugs in my entire life and when he was telling me all this crap and asking if I wanted to by some weed off of him, even though he was kidding, I was crying my eyes out because I know that he knows better than to make these stupid decisions he's making. This sounds so far-fetched and naive, considering I'm only a young teenager, but I really do love him. Maybe as a crush, a friend, or maybe something else, but I want what's best for him and I have no clue what to do about this situation.