Brokenhearts and Gab -

Its funny how Ive actually lived through everyones problems on this bored..

Im not going to sugar coat this at all. Please dont take offense to this.

One of my ex boyfriend's (who i loved dearly) was the nicest guy in the world. Very nice. very chivalrous, very attentive, very hot, etc. But he was TOO MUCH. Too attentive, too chivalrous, too SMOTHERING.

I couldnt breathe. It seemed like everywhere I turned, he was there. Everywhere I looked, I saw him (literallY). It was AWFUL.

You know how little kids on roadt trips constantly ask their parents "Are we there yet?" like every 5 seconds? You want to pull your hair out because you cant even think about the scenery -they wont stop.

Something like that. Sometimes its too much. I needed space. But I still loved him. I needed to just let him let me be for a while and feel free. Not single free - but running through fields on a mountain top free. I would probably still be with him if he did just that.

He didnt. And now when I think of him, I still feel smothered. Like I think of suffocation when I think back to him. I dont even want to think of him anymore. Its like food. If someone makes you eat cookies for the rest of you life only, you're going to never want to see cookies again.

My crazy suggestion is to fade away.. Tell him that you love him and you care about him, but your going to leave him alone. Entirely. Do it. Then tell him if he wants to hang out, you can. But go out. and eventually start seeing other people. If and when he realizes what he's missing, he'll be back. And maybe hopefully by then, you'll be too wrapped up in your OWN life, that you wont even care anymore.

Thats what you shoot for.