Originally Posted by *JuicyPinkApple
There Are People Dying In The World. Take The Thing In Russia. Parents Have Lost There Children Innocently. They Have The Right To Feel Lonely And Would Love To Start From The Begginig And Do Everything Right!
That....was hopelessly irrelevant.
Let me come at you from both sides Billy. Firstly I understand what pink is saying here. From your explanation (or lack thereof) of why you left her it's pretty clear that you ****ed up. You know that, I know that. But that's the beauty of the past, you never HAVE to worry about it because guess what, it never changes. So while I see the female perspective here it isn't the side I have experience with. I'm more concerned with saying "you ****ed up, now what?"
You know, this happens everyday and it's really a shame. I know you can't explain what posessed you to do it, no one expects you to. The point is now you've learned from your mistake. You've learned a LOT. Remember a quote from one of my PMs I sent you. "Problems are nothing but oppurtunities." It's so completely true. If you can't see it you aren't looking at your situation the right way. What you know: she engaged to some guy in California. She still here a month after she should've left. I sense apprehension. NOW is the time to do something. Calling....that's not going to cut it. Do something dramatic, think John Cusack with a boombox over his head playing Peter Gabriel kind of dramatic. Something MAJOR. Grab her attention and don't let it go until you've expressed everything to her you need to. Whether or not your relationship is salvagable you need to get this out of your heart and onto the table. Go with your gut on this one, but if it's really this important to you do something RIGHT THIS INSTANT. The more you sit on it the less serious you truly are. Prove to me you want this girl, don't you DARE respond to me until you have gone out and done your damndest to prove to her what you've told us. I don't wanna see you back here until you've done that.