Hard to live? YOu have been with this guy for 2 years. Only 2 years out of your lifetime. You lived without him before that, so this is no reason to talk like that.

Tell him that he said to give him space, and thats what your doing. He has to get his shit straightened out first before you talk to him. Tell him to stop messing with your head before he makes himself an enemy.

Christ woman, pull yourself together already!