Its time for me to either die, or grow the **** up......I just want to die... I just want to die...
Well, I personally vote for "grow the **** up". I think you're a pretty good guy. CERTAINLY not deserving of death. THere are scumbags taking up oxygen in this world that in my opinion SHOULD die because the world would be a better place without them. You're not one of them.
I've thought about getting a phsyciatrist (sp?).
That's an excellent idea. I'm actually going to get one myself in the upcoming months. Just someone to help me deal with all this stress I have and someone to talk to and help me figure out stuff. I have my fair share of stress (workin' two jobs, parents divorcing, father dangling stuff over my head like 'bait', haven't even DATED in months - although I don't like being single and alone, etc. etc.) Whether it can REALLY help me or not, I think it's worth the shot. It certainly can't hurt. I say you do the same. I think it's great that you're seeking out this help on your own to begin with. Good luck dude. Drop me a line online on how things are going when I'm around.
Rod Steele