take this advice from experience..this is only the beggining of what he is capable of doing to you! reading your post, I felt like I was reading about myself 2 years ago except I didnt listen when it got to the point your at with him...and yes once he can push you and hold you down, then he will go a little farther each time. My ex did this to me to the point that I was hiding my bruises, strangle marks, black eyes and bloody lips from people because I thought I "loved" him..anyone who can physically or mentally hurt you like that does not love you, they dont know what love is, its another way to control some of their life because they arent in control of other parts. I really really hope you listen to us and get out of this now, I didnt listen and ended up almost dead a few times...when I was at the point your at, I thought "he wont go any farther, this is the worst hell do"..its just denial, please talk to someone about this, and if you have to get a restraining order on him, or write him a letter instead of telling him in person you want to break up, because he may just go over the edge..please leave this guy for good