First of all, thanks so much to everyone who responded to this. It's not like my friends aren't here for me, but they really just do not understand the situation which makes it even harder for me because I really need people to talk this out with and get things figured out.
Today we talked again... he called me. He was just being a total jerk and telling me that I lied to him and that he never wanted a relationship in the first place (ok, the guy practically stalked me for a month before I finally decided to acknowledge he was alive lol) and just all this other stupid shit. I know he's saying it because he's hurt. He is seriously the most insecure person I know and I don't know how I didn't see it before. Yes, I feel bad for him because of that but I'm really through putting up with it. I HOPE. I don't want to jinx myself. I always say its all over and then the next day... but I really do feel differently about it this time and in no way do I want to be with him (when before I wanted to and just knew I shouldn't) so I'm really going to try not to go back to him. I won't go back to him. I think this week is going to be hard, but I have plans to go visit friends this weekend (that I haven't seen in FOREVER) and I really think that will help, because that is not something he would have let me do...

Anyways, thanks again guys. This probably sounds super lame but it really does mean a lot that you all, who don't even know me, cared enough to respond. I'm going to keep updating you (like it or not lol), it's really helping me to have to sort out my thoughts enough to write them down and then of course hearing what you all have to say about it is great too.
Goodnight!