If you have to hack her email to trust her, then run for the damn hills (without her) as fast as you can. Trust me, you do NOT want to lead a life worrying about who she is talking to about what. Trust, communication, and openness are the ONLY things worth building a relationship on - I was in the same situation that you were in a way but it lasted 19 years and ultimately it totally wore me down. I know what its like to love someone so much it hurts, but two wrongs don't make a right and you cannot morally defend hacking into her email on any level. Do you want to live a life of phone taps, hacking into her email, searching through her caller ID, using GPS's transmitters to track her movements, etc???? That would totally suck and it would only cause you pain in the long run. If you cannot trust her - then move on to someone that you can trust. I know full well that a bird in hand is worth 2 in the bush - but there are roughly 5 billion people in the world, which means there are 2 1/2 billion women in the world, and even if you are looking for one in a million to fall in love with that leads a hell of a lot of women out there for you. Don't drive yourself crazy over this - I've been there and done that and I was the one who ultimately suffered.

David