i dunno. Yeah, i admit, i am just too afraid in losing him. He was all i can feel and think about. To tell the truth, i used to be a very very cold hearted person (NOT meaning i am cruel) but i rarely feel any pain even up to the extend where my grandpa died. There was once when the doctor dignosis me of luekimia and all i felt was shock and no sadness, that's y even my own aunt call me cold hearted. That time i use this quote "no matter u feel sad or happy, the day will just pass by, y dun v spend our life in a happy way?"

and in addition to that, my FIRST ever crush screamed at me 4 years back when i tried to talk to him (after gathering ALL my courage to do so) so i transfered to another school FAR FAR away. That was the last time i remember my heart ache

ironictly, i met with him back 5 months ago. And to add on that, we didn't know that we used to be class mate until he confesed to me that he liked me. (this is beginning to turn into a fairy tale)

Anyway, since i know him, my heart learn something named pain. it ached when whe said smtg wrong. Sometime, i tears even rool out my eye without me knowing it!

i believe that he loves me, very much, but then i just dont feel that he loves me anymore!

howww????

i am very very afraid, i dun wanna lose him. I lost my virginity to him, we are engaged, we get back together after 4 years. i really dun wanna lose him... TT___TT