I'm definately going to talk to her about it. I mean, sure, I'd really like to get more physical, but the real crux is the fact that she never shares her feelings towards me, and that is what I must talk to her about. I doubt she is doing this for the purpose of brushing me off, but simply because she is probably naive, thinking I do know how she feels... and I know that feeling... it's not egocentricism, it's simply naive. And bear in mind I share the shyness with her... I'm very shy just as she is.

Earlier in August, she was going to camp for a week, and then 3 days after she got back from camp, she had a trip overseas for 10 days. She was so busy, we couldn't really go out, and I was quite disappointed. But I decided I'd go out the day before her flight, and just see her for a couple minutes just to say "hi" and "bye". I brought a bon voyage card with me, some M&M's, and a word search book (It was a long flight, I wanted something for her to do ) So, I arrived at her house, and even though I knew her, my heart was pounding.

She wasn't expecting me, so I almost knew she was going to be surprised by this. She opened the door, kind of smiled and said, "hi!" and then I kind of shook, gave her the things, and then said, "I hope you have a great time." And she said, "Yeah." I saw her friend downstairs... and for some reason I just froze. We just stood there staring at eachother... I could tell one of us was waiting for the other to say "Goodbye". To add to this, I was late for a music lesson as it was, and said so... and she nodded... more silence... finally, after 4 minutes, I finally just said goodbye and left.

It was by far the most awkward moment I've had... but it had got me thinking, she might, deep down, be waiting for me to make a move, but, just as we froze there, is frozen here. She is probably just afraid she will do the wrong thing and turn me off... She's got turn-me-off-phobia.

Well, today will be the first day since she's gone to Scotland, and it will be the celebration of our first year, and I want it to be as perfect as possible. I will have to just share my feelings with her and I'm sure she will understand my standing, and hopefully open up.

I thank you for your advice and will see what comes out of it.