oh well, here is another update. Dun leave me on this one. If i gonna do it, i need all the support i can get

Today he came over to the house. We were suppose to leave to the arcade before it open (mind u it was only 9am, it opens at 10.30am) so we can get double seating on the intial d machine and i can 'donate' some wins to him (means play with him and lose to him so he can level up) My granny was asking for some stuff (she is half blind, so i need to take care of her needs) and when i nurse my granny, he screams at me and rushing me to be faster.

me : wait la, granny wans me to get her clothes in the laundry first
him : I don't care what u do but u better hurry up or we can't get double seats! (screaming)
me : dun worry k baby?
him : i dunno, i dun care! If i dun get double seats i will personally kill u.
me : ...

i dun think he will do such thing. Would he?

Anyway, we finnaly got off and on the way, i conplained to him that i am very frustrated of him treating me that way. Putting initial d ahead of me. At that moment, i was ready for a break up (Ouch!)

When we reach the arcade, it was not opened yet (duh! it was only 10am) And i was very unhappy i kinda cried. He dragged me to the side stairs and he kneeled down infront of me saying "im sorry honey, sometimes i just kinda over react with initial d. sorry.."

Naturaly my heart broke into pieces. I forgave him and i played 50 games of initial d with him so he can level up faster (my eyes can c double by that time)

we later headed off to ANOTHER mall for movies. To cut things short, i went shopping, draged him along (he was screaming "this sux!!!!" loudly and put on a very sour face) The one that hurts me is "wth! ask me to accompany her to shopping...i rather her accompany me to the arcade. Go acrade mah, WHY shopping!
He though i was not around but apparently the fitting room is not sound proof

I tried to make things interesting by modeling some kinda exposed clothes for him. He clearly enjoyed it.

And yes, once i pay the cashier, he runs to the arcade.

later the night my ex gave me a call and kinda bitched about me. Dunno why he did that but it kinda hurt. I told my bf and he called me up straight (even he is so tired like he wanna die already) and say he will stay with me until i am happy and i am cheered up. He will stay up until 4 am if he have to.

me : why are u doing this?
him : because my job is to make u happy all the time. My goal is to make u happy and problem-free for life

yes, i kinda bought that. and yes, i am stupid T_T

he shower me with all kinds of sweet talks and wanted to sneek out of house tomorrow just to acompany me go shopping again.

i was kinda happy until he said "yes, u are attractive, you are the greatest, but just lacking of something. Maybe some sparks?"

and yes, that was the last straw i can take.

I AM LEAVING HIM BEFORE HE LEAVES ME

sound stupid huh?

well, i kinda think this is a good way to do things. I think this is how it should be. Who is on my back? Opinions needed!

n btw, i am very emotional now n i still love him very much, please dun attempt to throw shoe at me when i say i am back with hm again