Saw for the first time today in over a month...and I felt nervous...didn't come over that well...she said she was busy when I asked her to something that was coming up in the week...maybe an excuse..really don't know.

Having spoken to people..I'm pretty sure I'm just going to have to just watch from afar..be the best friends I can with her...talk about her religious views (obviously outside thwe work place, and if I can point a conversation in that direction) and see where it leads..I'm really all over the place with my beliefs at the moment...I feel I need just some guidance from some place

I know I mustn't push or pester her...I think her minds been long made up...From what I can gather she's had non-Christian relationships and they've never worked out, that's why she wants a Christian based one now..

I just pray if we really do talk she may see me in a different light if she takes the time to really get to know me...

I live in hope...