I haven't made up my mind on #1. I've just found out this new information less than a week ago that he was trying to hook up with that other girl. That's why it is up in the air. I did try and forgive him the first time, and it was just starting to get better when more things are revealed.

#2 and #3 are not necessarily a back up plan if things go terribly wrong with #1. They already did go terribly wrong. I don't want to keep the others on a string. And I'm not. I've never told any of them that I would be with them.

If this last inncodent didn't happen, I would still be with #1. He is begging for antoher chance, and I just don't know. I want to, more than I ever could describe, but I"m always going to feel like an idiot.



My Christmas break is about to start (I use the internet at work). I will be back on the 3rd to update you all more.

Thanks for the advise! Anymore advise is always appreicated.