ok what i will tell you is that i can relate becuz i in a past relationship that i connected i mean in every which way and i loved him and he loved me i acted the same way she did, i was plain out a bitch and i ;at some point became phkysical towards him first, it was horrible that then yes it di get to the point where like you he became physical with me and would finally yell at me, and i know to most in here that know me and just to myself i loved him he loved me but we because of our inability to communicate and always trying to be right and always being on the defensive it just was an unhealthy relationship!!! there were also some other factors such as drugs such as craNK that played into alot of aggresion. a line was crossed and my suggestion is that you now have been in a way by her mentally abused and because of her actions you have changed she does not bring the best out in you. i do have to admit that we finally did wrk things out, but in the end it was just too late you reached that point of no return! her behavior is not right and neither is yours. take a break, maybe some growing up is in order here on both parts and that may take time but for now leave this alone because the next blow out maybe worst because you guys have already gone there.just because you love someome and i do understand how you feel soes not mean that its right.