i know this much.... i have had my round of shitty boyfirnds and the guy that i married was so emotionaly abbusive to me and physically, that in my next relationship i felt that i needed to be the bully the one control so wheni did loose some control felt the slightest vulberable i would loose it to the point where i could not control myself and this drove me to maddnes, so my insecurites made me mean, bitchy and just....i dont know i lost myself within all the abuse! Does this make sense? i have also had some issues in my life that made me feel that i needed to be tough because i did not ever want to be hurt again. The answer in all this is to seek help. thats what i did for a little while. but some how i had to let go, i had to find myself. i am at peace now but i will tell you that at times i am in the same place, but i have grown up alot, been thru alot and have figured out that theres a diiferent way for me to cope..for me to trust. its funny you know how some things can affect you. sometimes life leave scars, that make you forget.

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