Originally Posted by Frasbee
Seems like at this point, after going on for this long, she's definitely calling out for help. Despite the fact she's refusing it.
If a person is really gonna commit suicide, they do it. I had a step father that got in her kind of condition, he even attempted, but the fact he didn't was a sign that he didn't really want to, afterall, it only takes one bullet, and it's not like guns are hard get a hold of (he tried to overdose).
I feel for ya, and hope everything gets better.
Frasbee, I hope you are right that it's a cry for help, but she admatelty refuses any help. I too have always heard that people who really want to do it don't talk about it, but the Sucide Prevention Hot Line that I spoke to said that even talk, especially this volume of talk, must be taken seriously. They kept saying 'just put her on the phone,' but she refused. You do bring up a good point...She has a car and some money. If she wanted to buy a gun, it wouldn't be hard to do, especially here in L.A. where you can buy one on almost every street corner, and with a clean record like hers, you can buy legitimally at a gun store. She tried it once (before we met) with (she says) 100 Zanax pills and a bottle of Jack Daniels and survived. For a small girl ('5"5 -110 lbs) I find that a little hard to believe as that should kill a moose.
We were planing a trip East next week to meet my family. I'm sorry but I'm going to have to cancel. I cannot fathom the Hell of being on a plane with her like this for five hours, much less her screaming about sucide at three AM at my Brothers house. Another problem is that it's getting me down and making me physically sick. If I get down, I'm no good to her or anyone else.
Like I mentioned, I've dealt with druggies and alcoholics in the past and that seems simple by comparison. This morning she's asleep (she was up all night) and I'm wondering what the mood will be when she awakens. This is heavy....