thanks blackie i also wish you the best of luck, im sure youve been in situations i cant even imagine, your 51 im 17 goin on 18, yes im young but i cant imagine my self with anyone else. should i tell her this, iv been kinda tip toeing around it, but i feel if i could trust her agiain, that things were like they were before i knew, the great relationship we had, i feel shes the one i could spend my life with, but should i tell her?