Uhm. I think you read my post wrong. :S

But one thing I did pick up from that, is that yeah, it *is* my problem. I never thought it was anybody elses. However, he was the cause of making me so depressed that I wanted to do that. I've always been bad at communication and I've always had a hard time hurting other people so I kept putting off dumping him until another date, either thinking, look hes so sad, he doesn't need anymore sadness, or look hes so happy that I don't want to spoil that.

But since dumping that boyfriend (two weeks ago), this new OTHER guy, Mitch, has been helping me over come my self-harm tendancies. And I agree it is my problem that I need to deal with, and have never thought different. But now my ex is threatening to tell people, and its making me more depressed because he's also trying to turn my other friends against me since I don't want to tell too many people about this, considering the amount of pressure already on us at school at the moment. I don't think he actually will anymore, he seems to have found it to his advantage not to tell anyone now, since he can weave what happened into a tale about how I was at fault and I was just dumping him for Mitch which is complete bullshit.