Hahahaha! Cdoc, once again, I can totally relate.

I too have had my first "romantic experience" since my breakup, though romance wasn't really involved at all, at least on my part.

Mine was actually with my ex's old friend, a girl I met at the same time as her, very cute and I actually liked her before I ended up with the current ex. She was more indifferent to me, which explains my attraction to her at that point.

Well, last week I took her to a party. We were sitting outside and I offered her a chair, but she preferred to sit on my lap. She was blabbering on about feeling "loving" and wanting to "make out," and I was just pretty indifferent, even though that was the purpose of taking her to the party.

Anyway, later that night we were alone. I gave her my jacket (it was cold) but pulled her close to me to "keep me warm." I felt totally numb at this point, like an actor reading a script he doesn't necessarily care much about. We started kissing eachothers' necks, lips, yada yada yada, etc... Are you starting to get an idea of how "not into it" I was?

Well, lucky for me she didn't press for anything. The whole time I was kissing her I was just thinking, "Oh God no, donut, DO NOT let this happen again, DO NOT!" I'm simply not ready for it I suppose... Or maybe she was too easy. I think we need a challenge, don't you Cdoc?

Peace.