I'll keep an eye out for that book Donut.

And it never ceases to amaze me that you STILL seem to be in the same damn boat!!

You are right, I do have at lease some affection, but I'm scared of it. With you, it's you could care less, because you don't like them or do you? and just aren't going to admit it yet? The mind works weird.

Last night I was talking to this so called "date" and a buddy of mine. How things can change in a matter of hours, I'll never understand, but the conversation on both sides with this person -it almost seemed like we were BOTH trying to back away from this. I think it makes sense though, because we are such good friends. I may want to approach her on it, but I'm not sure. If I confront her and tell her that perhaps the sacrifice of friends is too much, she might get upset, however, she might be thinking the same and she could be scared to tell me.

I think that Saturday night will have the answers to these questions, but all this operatic crap going on in my life with my previous date and being attracted to other people too has made me want to just throw my book down and walk away. If that makes sense.

In any case, wish me luck for Saturday...I may or may not need it.

Cdoc

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