How

I walk,
The anger blinding me,
I can't believe this talk,
How could she do this to me?

I stare at the picture,
It sits on the desk,
I begin to read her scripture,
The lies grow grotesque,

All the lies,
I didn't see,
My heart slowly dies,
How could she do this to me?

I sit and stare,
My eyes fill with disbelief,
She stands there,
Her eyes filled with grief,

"I'm sorry," she smiles,
I don't know what to say,
"It's been awhile,"
I start to move away,

I walk to the door,
The sadness rising in me,
I don't want to talk to this whore,
How could she do this to me?

My head tells me to stay,
My heart tells me to leave,
I don't want it to happen this way,
How could I have been so naive?

I run out of the house,
She runs after me,
The wind blowing her blouse,
She issues her one final plea,

I know I was wrong,
I was so lost,
It's been to long,
I can't bear the cost,

I look at her one final time,
The emotions rising in me,
Words begin to climb,
How could you do this to me?

I run to the car,
I don't care where I go,
My heart begins to scar,
It's hard to see through the snow,

I try to think,
My mind is numb,
I dare to blink,
Where did this pain come from?

I swerve,
It's to late,
I hit the curb,
So this is my fate.

I hit a tree,
I don't know what happened,
It's the last thing I see,
I know, I was abandoned,
How could she do this to me?

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Sunset

We stare across the ocean blue
The sun nothing more than a flame
I sing softly to you
Whispering your name

I look into your eyes
They seem to tell it all
Amazing how time goes by
As the stars begin to fall

My love shall never fade
I will forever be here
In this world we've made
As we hold each other near

There's anything I'd give
Anything I'd do
As long as I never have to live
Another day without you.

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Retrospect

As I look upon this day
I smile on the past
Happy that things turned out this way
I hope it’s going to last

All I think about is you
I remember the day we met
One of the lucky few
I don’t want to go home just yet

You are my one, my only
The one who captured my heart
Because of you I’m no longer lonely
And I never want to be apart

I can’t wait until tomorrow
All the things that are to be
My soul no longer hollow
You’ll never know how much you mean to me.

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Death of Innocence

These thoughts in me
Played out before my eyes
I’m beginning to see
This is why I cry

There’s no one here
Just me alone
No one to ease my fear
If only I was home

I have nowhere to go
Nowhere to stay
There’s no one I know
That can make this go away


Through all the pain
I’m beginning to lose sight
My heart just can’t contain
The end of all that’s right

If only I knew
Which way to run
Then maybe I’d make it through
And out of the darkness I’d come

Is it even worth it?
What can I possibly do?
This life is far from perfect
It’s beginning to cloud my view

I’ll find someplace to stay
I’ll make it out alive
Just another day
If only I can survive

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My Personal War

The emotional battles that never end
Trying as hard as I can
My broken heart just won't mend
Just trying to be a better man

What is it you want from me?
Do you even care?
I'm just beginning to see
You were never even there

I'm so alone right now
All I need is you
I'll figure it out somehow
Just like I always do

Life goes on I suppose
I hide my secrets deep
You're the only one who knows
The reasons I can't sleep

It will all end soon
I'll be gone without a trace
I'll sing my sorry tune
Proving myself disgraced

I wanted you to recognize
No matter what they say
Look closely into my eyes
I'll make it back someday

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Thanks,

-Kat

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