If theres one thing I like about life is how funny everything is, some people have all the luck, and then theres me, lol. I go through life thinking it cant get any worse and then a bird shits on me as im walking into my work, XD. ( That really happend... twice)
and i just laugh. Or im deep in the darkness of my heart and then sometimes i cant hope but smile. Human nature is a very weird thing. The fact that we cling to hope, no matter how far fetched it is, and let that get us through is amazing, its almost like a gift we have. Or a curse, who knows. At a certain point in depression you start to break down physically and mentally. (At one point i was losing my social skills >.<.) and i have physical pain in my heart, where it used to hurt when i cried. But now, its like whatever. I always seem to get through somehow, whats the worse that could happen. usually at this point something bad happens, my pos car breaks down, or someone wants to beat me up for no reason, etc. But hey when you think about it its pretty funny. Someone up there must really be having fun screwing me around, and i think im having fun too. Well im amused anyway. Hold on Ov I did and 3 years later it still eats at me like a parasite in my gut, but hope keeps it down. But what the hell do I know?

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