Originally Posted by Stillinlove
Ov i have a feeling we are the only people on this bbs that understand what is going on with you. People have to look past the physical, because physical situations do not cause the worst pain. When you have other problems in your life, having your soul slowly dying doesnt help. Your going to have to come to terms with yourself or it will be too late ov. I know you dont care, because i didnt. But im going to use love to help me, not destroy me, as i did for 3 years. (and theres alot of inreparable damage). I feel for you man, because i can empathize with your situation. To tell you the truth i am jealous of you. You know where she ****ing is. You pretty much know shes ok. I would do anything for that information about the woman i love. At least to apologize to her... /sigh Im sorry. Anyway dude, please find a reason to live. There is nothing after this, and ceasing to exist sounds like it would suck ass.
Yea, Physical pain is temporary. Sometimes I wonder what the threshold is for emotional pain. How can you use love to help you? Specially since you are not with the person you believe you love?. I know who I am and I know were I stand....I just don't like my situation and changing it is almost impossible through my perspective. I think she is ok. I know were she lives but I do not know what she is ever doing. I think ceasing to exists only sucks ass when you have not ceased to exist yet. Its non-exitance so its just nothing....kind of peace-full through my persepctive with all the stuff going on in my life. I think you might have had feelings for someone like me after reading your posts. Talking to my friends in person or when we go somewhere is like talking to a wall. I explain what I am feelings and its as if they don't understand and just change the subject like this "Here Tom, A beer fixes anything!" ...I hate that so much that I actually started to avoid alot of my friends. I can not relate to anyone.
Originally Posted by artyemi
I'm slightly confused because isn't love a huge part of relationship?
Yea, it is a big part but neither of those two need each other to exist.
Originally Posted by artyemi
my method of suicide will not be:
falls
slitting my wrist
blowing my head off
The first 2 are actually pain-full. Slitting your wrist will hurt and you have to cut really deep to hit the proper vein. The third requires a weapon. The first will hurt for at least 2 seconds that you hit the ground...terribly...
I would like to overdose on morphine but getting my hands on some is difficult.