I guess I knew her since I was 7 (10 years ago)... I never knew this, she was the one who told me.. heh. She is very good friends with my best friend, and my best friend knows about it. He knows that I feel like just dieing because I hadn't said anything yesterday. I will try to talk to her today I guess... Just hope I can find her walking alone in the halls because I don't think I can handle the public place.. Heres why:

When I told my best friend X, that night I stayed up from 12am to 5am on a school night, sitting in the rain getting pelted by high winds. Trying to forget that I told him or just to ease the pain. And I told him in a private place, alone from everyone else.. and I still turned deep red and was shaking like I had never before.. Now I get that same nervious feeling when I am just NEAR KT. Telling her is one thing, but telling her with 100s of people going passed you in the halls, or the isolation of 30 kinds in a room with you... I am normally a very quiet person, and this is just too big a task.. If she brought it up, I could easly tell her everything.. but in a somewhat private setting.. if we are in a hall alone, or a certain part of the room when no one is paying attention sure.. but the other day.. she had said ONE thing to me.. and I still don't know what she ment. We are having a in-class group project now in my 4th hour class. The project groups are in groups of two, and the amount of work each groups get vary on their current grade in the class. I, of course have an A.. so the work level is higher.. anyways, she says this to me in my last hour:

KT: Brandon? Do you have a study hall tomarrow?
Brandon: Yea, but it's third hour
KT: Nono, I mean't in Mr. Jones's class (4th hour)
Brandon: Actually, we are so far behind that we wouldn't have time to work on our other homework.
KT: Oh ok

That was that.. nothing else.. Could she have possibly wanted to talk to me tomarrow when everyone was working on their homework? Or most likely something else?

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